a chat with God

God, it's as if I'm thirsty for you but don't really know it. Like I kinda want you but I don't want to make much effort. Silly humanness. Sometimes I think I'm just so lazy. I guess if something is interesting it's easier to pay attention or give effort to. That's probably why I sook about lack of feeling. "Capture my heart, God. Renew my passion." You know? It would make it easier. Pure obedience is much more challenging. It takes a lot more effort to obey when you don't feel like it.